I got my Zantrex 3 in the mail yesterday just in time to take one before dinner. I made sloppy joes for the boys (this includes the hubby). I normally eat at least 2 of those puppies. But the Zantrex put a hurting on my hunger. I wasn't hungry but I knew I had to sit and eat with the family. So I ate 1 tablespoon of sloppy joe on a slice of whole wheat bread. My husband and kids know I am dieting so seeing me eat like a bird doesn't cause alarm. They know I need to loose weight.

I know that if I get below my target weight, everyone is going to hound me to eat like they did before. I swear! You can't make them happy..ever. I mean, three years ago I was 140 lbs (I'm only 5 ft tall) when I decided to go on a diet. It took me a year to get nice and thin again. I got down to 98 lbs. Which, okay, I admit, was lower than what I had planned to get but I felt beautiful. I could see my hipbones and it had been so long since I had seen those!

So at the behest of the family, I started making myself eat. That was last year. It didn't take long for me to start gaining weight again. This time I only got to 128 lbs when, after fat comments from my husband, I am now dieting again. This time though I don't give a shit what anyone says. If I get down to 98 lbs then screw them. I am not going to be forced to eat and get fat like they are. Let them shove all that high fat, high calorie crap in their bodies.

I plan to look HOT on my 40th birthday. I have two years to go....I can't wait.

I'm a little upset with myself for eating three chicken wings at our company luncheon. I could have had a slice of pizza for less calories! I usually plan what I eat before I eat it by going onto the calorie count website: http://www.fitday.com/WebFit/Index.html
I feel fine about the kale only salad with fat free Italian dressing and the diet coke. But at the behest of my co-workers I was made to feel obligated to eat a wing or two! I normally don't go to the once a month luncheons but everyone was starting to think I was being a bitch. And then of course, my time ran out for me to go to the bathroom and get rid of what I had eaten.
Thats ok though. I will make up for it. I'm only up to 673 calories for the day. I can snack on my negative calorie foods and do one hell of a work out when I get home.

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